I just go thru old photos and realizing how toxic i am. I've hurt people, not just once. And now i'm questioning why did i get hurt. am i questioning something i've done before? stupid enough huh? i dump people for nothing. it's just because i don't feel the spark is there. i don't think i can afford the relationship until i get married, so i left without explaining a single shit. i don't think i can be happy with the relationship bcs i don't even happy with myself. will i ever meet someone i won't never get bored? do i deserve someone? am i sure that i won't get bored even when i have new job, even when i meet new people, will my love for the one still be the same? do i deserve a last long relationship?

layak kah engkau untuk mencintai dan dicintai? seberapa banyak manusia yang telah engkau lukakan hatinya dan berpaling tanpa sepatah kata? dan engkau berpura seolah telah disakiti sedangkan yang awal menyakiti adalah engkau